Up and down
If I can get into August I will be ok with it all. I have calmed down a lot the last 10 days. Didn't expect to do as well as I actually felt the first 3 or 4 days.
They had said that their blog updates would follow them on their trip but I didn't really expect them to. When I read of their travels I suddenly missed them more than I had imagined. I should just have left it alone.
I am being fine at home - playing more with the kids and getting on with things around here...but in the back of my mind I still have an itch to go and do something wild. No ones fault I am so bored at the moment - nobody but myself.\
I am missing the excitement I think - maybe that is the deal.
I wonder how it will all fizzle out or whether it will end up like some '84 Charring Cross Road' story.
It's similar to the way I expect my life will suddenly become mine again when all the kids are back to school. I have unrealistic expectations and then when it doesn't all click into place my depression kicks in and I just struggle to tread water on an everyday basis.
I need to learn to be content with my lot in life. Instructions would be gladly accepted.